LOOKING TO PRAISE AND WORSHIP JESUS THE CHRIST, THE SON OF THE LIVING GOD. 18 No man has ever seen God at any time; the only unique Son, or the only begotten God, Who is in the bosom [in the intimate presence] of the Father, He has declared Him [He has revealed Him and brought Him out where He can be seen; He has interpreted Him and He has made Him known].

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

The Sacrifices of God

"The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart--- These, O God, You will not despise" Psalm 51:17

I was going through my blogroll today and came across a blog that has gone dormant for over a year now. I went through his now ancient postings and happened on his confession of a secret sin. It was pornography. I too am well aquainted with that sin.

He writes, "Pornography is a sin against my wife and family as well. Eph 5 calls for a man to love His wife as Christ loves the church. We are told in Prov 5 to be wholly devoted to and satisfied with our wives. I betrayed the promises I made to her before God. I have sought her forgiveness and my loving gracious wife has extended that forgiveness to me once again. She is a model of the mercy of God. I explained to my children that I had made sinful choices that led to me no longer being a pastor. My family is understanding the corporate consequences of personal sin, like Nehemiah talks about in chapter 1."

Pornography is a scourge. It is addicting. It is deadly; It cost this man the pastorate. I have known it to cost Christian men their earthly lives as God moves in with the "ultimate" chastening. I, myself, spent six weeks in the hospital, five of those in traction, because of that sin. That was in 1978.

Imagine what it would be like to go to an X- rated theater, only to see that the one taking your ticket is someone you had witnessed to about Christ only two years earlier! "Mark, You?!" Was the astonished question from him. "Yes, Tom, me". Twenty-nine years later I am still haunted by that scene. I had sinned! I had misrepresented Christ in front of someone I had once tried to win to Christ.

But, note our verse - "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit, A broken and a contrite heart--- These, O God, You will not despise" Psalm 51:17. Back to that man's post, "Repentance involves the intellect, emotion and will. In the past my half attempts at repentance have included the intellectual owning of guilt and the emotional sorrow, but rarely an intentional change of the will. I am working, by the grace of God to radically amputate this sin and fully repent. Again, I am here to seek your forgiveness as a church family. Please continue to pray for me and for my family. We love you and thank you for the love and grace you have demonstrated to us!"

I believe this man, in the above paragraph, showed the outworkings of "a broken and contrite heart".

Dear Christian brother, are you sinning against God, your wife and your children with this wicked sin? Wicked sin? Yep. Why I say wicked is because we men try to treat this sin so lightly, because, after all, all men struggle with it; it's so natural. Well, no, it is actually grievous to the INDWELLING HOLY SPIRIT!

Do you wish to go on grieving Him? Do you wish to go on being unfaithful to your wife? Do you wish to face severe chastening?

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Blogger Bhedr said...

Dude! you should have listened to Insight For Living Today

March 06, 2007 8:22 PM

Blogger Bhedr said...

Btw brother, I have been haunted by the past as well but we don't have to dig up bones anymore. We are the righteousness of God in Christ, but it is good that you are humble and willing to encourage others. Brother I had struggles in the past too, but now I am beginning to wonder if perhaps God may have been preparing men like you and me who once went out of our way to find pornography and then finding victory in him to strengthen the other brethren who are dropping like flies now that it is exploding all over the internet.

Maybe brother. Consider it and listen to Swindoll talk about this. It is very powerful. In fact I was blown away by what he said as so much of it has been on my heart lately. He is a former Marine too:-)

Check it out and may we as men confront this evil and not give in to it. So many are being passive about it right now thinking that God doesn't mind...but oh this sin as you said...will find us out!

Again, good post brother. My heart went out to brother Dave as well. Bless his heart. I wonder how he is doing?

March 06, 2007 8:32 PM

Blogger bluecollar said...

Brian, thanks for the link.

I've had four knee surgeries, two of them related to the car accident that was brought on by my sinning against God and His subsequent chastening. I now have a minor to major limp, depending on the weather. My left knee is deteriorating yearly and needs to be replaced. I prefer this state of things over my previous state of broken communion with God.

March 07, 2007 8:25 AM

Blogger Reid said...

Timely. Necessary. Excellent. It is the prevailing issue of the day for most men. We need to keep talking about this out loud. What is brought to the light becomes light - and eventually frees.

March 07, 2007 8:47 AM

Blogger Craver Vii said...

Bluecollar said: "I prefer this state of things over my previous state of broken communion with God."

Right on!

March 07, 2007 9:25 AM

Anonymous jel said...

hey mark,

came by see how you all are doing,
and ask about your dad

Blessings brother/friend

March 07, 2007 2:52 PM

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Quite the heavy subject this is. Thank you Mark and Brian for your honesty.

March 09, 2007 10:10 AM

Blogger Rose~ said...

Thanks for posting this, Mark!

(I have been trying to say that for days)

March 09, 2007 10:11 AM


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